Dedicated to my loves.

I am being brought up in a family who doesn't really celebrate special occasions such as mother's day, father's day or birthday. Well, maybe just birthdays. But we will just simply remember each other's birth dates and have a special meal as a family... or get some gifts. To me, as cliché as it sounds, EVERY day is a mother's and father's day. We appreciate them now and then, not once a year. For that, I would like to dedicate this blog post to the most important people of my life; MY BELOVED PARENTS. ♥

I seldom say this to you both but I just want you to know that I truly, deeply love you, Ibu and Ayah ♥


I know I've not been a good daughter all these while. I always make silly noises at home, drag you both to malls to get my stuff even at night, use up your money to fulfill my cravings for clothes, and many more...
but ended up not fulfilling what Ibu and Ayah wanted (like getting a darn good aggregate and GPA).
Still, you both tolerate my nonsense and the cycle repeats. Hahahaha.

I secretly adore you both (of course I adore my parents) especially by the way you treat your parents. Ibu was the one who took care of late nenek all the while until she passed away last year. And Ayah has been the concern one towards tokmak's well-being and he will never fail to keep track of her medicinal supply. I really hope that I will grow up to be a fine adult, following your footsteps in taking a very good care of your parents. I wish to take care of you just like how you did/do to your parents and children and I really hope that I'll be able to give Ibu and Ayah the comfort and everything. Insya Allah Aameen Yaa Rabbal 'Aalameen. :')

I pray to Allah to grant my parents/family an abundance of health and blessings. I pray to Him that I'll be able to repay my parents' kindness towards us. I pray to Allah that they will be able to feel my pay when I have a job in the future. I wish to give them the comfort, the happiness, the serenity and love. I can't wait to get a job and grow wiser and start repaying them. I wanna see both my parents chill at home, not needing to go to work everyday, just to feed us. I wanna feel the reverse. Wouldn't it be great if they can just relax at home and spend their time leisurely while I earn the money? And going to the mosque together for religious classes without the need to think about work? And driving to Johor anytime they want to fulfill their seafood cravings?
Ahhh I'm waiting for that time to come. Insya Allah!

Honestly, I feel kinda 'useless' now as I'm not earning. Studying needs money, traveling needs money, everything also need money!!! And I no have money!!! I hate to say that I'm fully dependent on my parents for it. I really should get a part-time job soon. Really.

Together with my hopes, I wanna include a sorry note to my parents.
I'm sorry and I apologize for the countless shortcomings from me. I'm sorry for not being a filial daughter. I'm sorry for not being who you wished I am. I will try to change myself for the better Insya Allah.

I swear Ibu and Ayah are the best parents I could ever asked for. No words can describe how blessed am I to have you both as my guardians. May Allah shower ibu and ayah with His unlimited blessings, aameen.
I want Ibu and Ayah to know that even though I may not always show it, I actually cared and will always care for you both. I love you, My Pretty Ibu and My Handsome Ayah, Mmmuah! ♥ ♥ ♥

P/S: I'll be on a 2-weeks hiatus from 17th Sept to 30th Sept. Will be leaving for Guangzhou, China and later on to Hong Kong for my school's study + holiday trip. Do make du'a for me and team for a safe journey to and fro ya? Insya Allah kheir, aameen. Oh, and I may not be contactable via Facebook and Twitter. WhatsApp perhaps? :D

Till then, with peace.